When life gives you lemons... dream of tiny houses

Ah! Hello, long time no see (like two months oops) but that's alright. I'm making this blog mostly for myself, and I'm happy whether anyone reads it or not.

Anyways, this time I want to talk about a couple of things that have happened during this time: from medical issues with family, to reconnecting with nature in the countryside, to the crazy state of the world, outfits, and dreams for the future.

First, where was I?

I was where I always am (in the big city of Santiago de Chile). Working a lot from Monday to Friday and then studying for my postgrad thingy (almost at the end of this, thank GOD).
And then, one day at 2 a.m., we get a call from my brother, who is taking our grandpa to the hospital. I won't go into details for privacy, and just because it's his story and not mine, but we feared the worst outcome. While some heavy stuff did transpire and a lot of adjustments have been made, he is doing well, is happy, and is living temporarily with us in the apartment.

The past couple of months have felt like such a weird dream. We went from the most intense emotions of fear, to calm, to trying to stay resilient, and then to just laughing... I have to say, my grandpa sure is one tough guy. He is now super focused on his recovery, and he is 89 years old! Today he learned how to transfer money using his phone, so yeah... admirable.

Grandpa and Alfie having a staredown

Second, the world and burnout lead to countryside escapes

I had already booked my paid vacation, so after everything with the medical situation started calming down a bit, I went back to work, in a world full of war and strangeness, as a super burnt-out 30 year old. I worked to the best of my ability, got some wins and some losses, until my vacation rolled in and I went to the countryside to visit my brother. What can I share? Mmm, well, I slept a lot! And read some books (I read Dune Messiah and really enjoyed it!! even more than the first one), and I also drew a lot. I will share some of those drawings here.

Now onto Children of Dune...

An illustration I did recently, posted over on instagram.

But having intellectual hobbies is not everything in life. We also started an orchard with my brother and began growing carrots, potatoes, and cauliflowers. We are excited about this and plan to move on to more vegetables soon.

Carrots that I hope will grow.

Oreo enjoying the sun and nature.

Third, nurturing my eccentric side

My mom told me some time ago that I only loved the version of myself that was “productive,” and that I should also love the more eccentric and unique parts of myself. I wanted to resist, but you know what? She was right. I think that while this is not something we can become better at overnight, we can make small decisions and take intentional steps toward self-acceptance and love. For my part, I have been putting more focus on my self-expression through my outfits and not caring if anyone sees me as “too much.” It's okay, I'm just me, and I love fashion and mixing and matching clothes.

Outfit 1 - Lovely green scarf, 2003 sitcom lead.

Outfit 2 - Office but make it bohemian

About the future and fixations

Lately, I have been watching a lot of tiny house videos, because when I first discovered them a couple of years ago, I thought, “That's exactly what I want"...A tiny place to call my own, not too much material stuff, focusing on freedom (financial, but also spiritual), and living for the things that are actually worth it. Like lazing around and making art haha. I'm not someone who dreams of a big house to fill with things I don't really need or use. Do you feel the same? Or would you like to have a bigger home? (Hey, no judgment here!)

I'm thinking about actually creating a plan to make this come true. I can see myself in my tiny house... maybe an A-frame cabin, with flowers outside, big windows that let me look out to nature, and a comfy couch. I will leave a link here in case you're interested in seeing more about this subject. The video I linked is of some really cool AF lady.

Oh yeah I don't know how to add this but I went to lollapalooza day 3 and saw Chappell Roan, Addison Rae and MARINA <3 I had the best time 

That's it for today. I have been trying to enjoy the bits of life that feel fun and relaxing during such a weird time in history. I don't want to lose hope and I want to make people smile. We have been laughing a lot with my grandpa.

I hope you are doing alright.

Love,
Cam.